Donna's Journey

My journey is only beginning

Educating My Daughters

Filed under: Tradition, Women's Issues — Donna at 12:27 am on Friday, January 30, 2009

The raising of my daughters has been a hope chest journey, a journey together. I was prepared by my mother and her mother before her, back through time. I have been drawn to learn a great many things that were not passed on to me. My journey has been a journey of the whole self. I have endeavored to pass my knowledge and skills to my daughters. My daughters have been blessed through the associations with other women in our family circle and within my circle of friends who have shared their knowledge and experience with my daughters. Women need women to nurture and inspire them and help them flower into womanhood.

Balance vs. Harmony and Rhythm

Filed under: Creation/Organization, Epiphanal Living, Inner Abundance, Taming of the Screw — Donna at 5:55 pm on Thursday, January 29, 2009

I was once asked, in an Oral Defense, if I thought balance was a true principal. I spontaneously blurted out, “No!” Then I realized I would have to defend my odd position, because most people think it is. Could I?

Where there is no vision, the people perish… Proverbs 29:18

I envisioned, in my mind’s eye, a balance or a scale where one tries to make things equal. That applied to life would be nuts. I decided that if I were to live my life by the straight jacket of balance, I would be living by the flesh of my own arm and would preclude epiphanies and flexibility. All things are not of equal value. All relationships are not equal. Even all good things are not of equal value. We have to make choose.

I can see my dear Stake President placing sand in a bottle to represent all the little things we need to do each day and then he tried to add balls of many sizes to represent all the good things we try to juggle. It did not all fit. So he poured it all out and added the big things and then poured in the sand and it did not all fit. Then he said that it was not all supposed to fit. We have to choose. That is huge. Oh, wait, this is a principle, we are free to choose!

Wherefore, men are free according to the flesh; and call things are given them which are expedient unto man. And they are free to choose liberty and eternal life, through the great Mediator of all men, or to choose captivity and death, according to the captivity and power of the devil; for he seeketh that all men might be miserable like unto himself. II Nephi 2:27

This life is so grand, there are many good things to choose. We are as children in a candy shop, really. Every choice is a trade off. Will we choose to trade off long term happiness, for short term easy, or pleasure. Life is so short and eternity so long. “Oh be wise, what can I say more?”

Last weekend I got out the talk Mothers Who Know. I had shared with my future son-in-law, Rory, how as a young mother President Benson had spoken to husbands and wives in a talk, to the Mothers in Zion, and how it changed my perspective and the course of my life. He then mentioned Julie Beck’s talk and he said he needs to read both. That led me to reread Benson’s talk and listen to Julie Beck’s talk. I listened to that talk, over and over again.

Julie Beck reminded me that :

“Mothers Who Know Do Less

Mothers who know do less. They permit less of what will not bear good fruit eternally. They allow less media in their homes, less distraction, less activity that draws their children away from their home. Mothers who know are willing to live on less and consume less of the world’s goods in order to spend more time with their children—more time eating together, more time working together, more time reading together, more time talking, laughing, singing, and exemplifying. These mothers choose carefully and do not try to choose it all. Their goal is to prepare a rising generation of children who will take the gospel of Jesus Christ into the entire world. Their goal is to prepare future fathers and mothers who will be builders of the Lord’s kingdom for the next 50 years. That is influence; that is power. “

I think this principle of less is more, is one found in current decorating trends and even fashion, but not in our lives.

So, if balance is not a correct principle, what do I feel is? Harmony and Rhythm. Harmon is an agreement or pleasing arrangement. Rhythm, according to American Heritage Dictionary, is “Movement or variation characterized by the regular recurrence or alternation of different quantities or conditions: the rhythm of the tides.” I feel true harmony begins when we counsel with the Lord in all our doings and hearken to the guidance we sought. Sustainable rhythm can happen when we submit our default routines to God.

Counsel with the Lord in all thy doings, and he will direct thee for good; yea, when thou liest down at night lie down unto the Lord, that he may watch over you in your sleep; and when thou risest in the morning let thy heart be full of thanks unto God; and if ye do these things, ye shall be lifted up at the last day. Alma 37:37

Like Martha I feel that I am too often “careful and troubled about many things.” Sometimes I just shut down and check out, as a result. That is when being busy is Being Under Satan’s Yoke. Life then slips into crisis mode and can be held hostage to the urgent but unimportant. Mary on the other hand chose that which was needful.

In those moments of powerlessness and overwhelm perhaps it is a do-it-yourself kit. Arising early helps me examine my life with clarity not found once the day adds its distractions. If I get my vision for the day I am more likely to be resolute, when urgent but unimportant things arise. I am also more likely to not slip into the oblivion of non-urgent, unimportant things that waste my time and suck my energy for little or no return.

How will I promote harmony and rhythm?

Cease to be idle; cease to be unclean; cease to find fault one with another; cease to sleep longer than is needful; retire to thy bed early, that ye may not be weary; arise early, that your bodies and your minds may be invigorated. Doctrine and Covenants 88:124

I feel that the number one thing that derails rhythms is poor sleep habits. When I retire late, I tend to either:
* arise late and have less time and no vision and therefore am very ineffective.
* Arise on time but am not at full steam and still work less efficiently.

Where vision is lacking, overwhelm is not far behind. Creativity blocks arise. Epiphanies are drowned in the crisis’ that beset, many which are unimportant.

So, I have retired too late too often, as of late. It has sent my life into the cycle of crisis. The blessed Zone of Harmony and Rhythm takes about a week to straighten sleep cycles before full productivity can even be contemplated. Naps would not hurt either, while my wrists are healing.

Sweetheart Special

Filed under: Creation/Organization — Donna at 1:00 am on Tuesday, January 27, 2009

I have a wonderful friend that has a recording studio in Saratoga Springs called Lakeview Recording Studio. He is running a Sweetheart Special. I think I will take him up on it. I have never done a CD before.

Bridal Boot Camp a Success!!!

Filed under: Julia and Rory — Donna at 9:42 pm on Sunday, January 25, 2009

No we did not diet. We ate sensible healthy food and had loaded salads many days for lunch and often salad with dinner. We did not even cut out sweets. We drank water when thirsty which really is a warning that I am low on water. We took our vitamins.

So what did it? Our workouts and the long walks up hill to the park bumped it up. I know with walking alone I drop 2 1/2 lbs a week. The doc gave me permission to continue walking and the pool with the caution if it hurts stop, pain will be my limiting factor.

On Thursday Julia bought a beautiful dress to wear to the temple and luncheon the day of the wedding. It was a size smaller than the wedding gown. She tried it on anyway and it fit. So, I decided to buy lacings for the back of the wedding gown because it is a lace up dress, and the lacings are missing. On Friday after we got home from the fall and walk, Julia showered and then tried on the wedding gown. The zipper zipped right up.

Are we going to stop? Nope. The more we walk the better we feel. The stress is off because her goal of fitting the dress has been surpassed, but we both know that these workouts have been revitalizing us and have brought us more health. No jokes about my gimp status please.

Almost a Knock Out

Filed under: Health — Donna at 9:20 pm on Sunday, January 25, 2009

What in the world is going on? AM I distracted, or what?

On Friday, after the fall I was tidying up the house. I opened the overhead cleaning cupboard and a sponge popped out. I bent down and retrieved it, forgetting the cupboard was open I stood up quickly. I slammed my head into the corner of the cabinet. Yes, I have a sizable egg! I just folded into a bawling heap on the floor. Honestly my children must wonder what is going on with me.

Do I need a padded room?

Covenants are Not Burdens

Filed under: Church Meetings — Donna at 9:10 pm on Sunday, January 25, 2009

Today was ward conference and President Brady, our Stake President spoke. It is just what I needed to hear.

We all have burdens and we develop strength and receive blessings as we work through those burdens.

He gave particular insight on Matthew 14. He said the water was turbulent that day on purpose– to show God’s power. It was Peter’s burden. Peter started out fine, became afraid, lost focus and began to sink. It took the hand of the Lord to lift him out. Sometimes our burdens cause us to lose sight. It is our burdens that help us turn to the Lord and reach out to Him. He told us to turn to the Lord and trust him with all our hearts. The sacrament is a weekly opportunity to turn to the Lord.

We all have challenges.

“And it came to pass that I, Nephi, beheld the power of the Lamb of God, that it descended upon the saints of the church of the Lamb, and upon the covenant people of the Lord, who were scattered upon all the face of the earth; and they were armed with righteousness and with the power of God in great glory.” I Nephi 14:14

Sometimes through the day we lose our perspective, through working with children (and others), employment issues, wayward children, health issues…

Blessings…there is more than we sometimes allow in our lives. [my thoughts- what blessings do we deny ourselves because we have listened to the fear monger, Satan? and do not trust the Lord? "For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind." II Timothy 1:7. Do we not realize where the fear comes from?]

“OUR COVENANTS ARE NOT BURDENS BUT THE WAY TO RECEIVE THE BLESSINGS.” We cause them to become burdens when we lose perspective and focus on the wrong things. “I, the Lord, am bound when ye do what I say; but when ye do not what I say, ye have no promise.”
Doctrine and Covenants 82:10

God keeps his promises.

“…and mine angels round about you, to bear you up.” Doctrine and Covenants 84:86

Remember, remember each day, this is why we are here.
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I contemplated this all. Great blessings have always come when I let go of my childish fears and turned to God with all my heart, not insisting on my way, trusting that His sight is greater than mine. His yoke is easy and his burden is light, especially when I trust God and His plans. An easy yoke is one custom fitted to the two oxen that pull the weight.

Flood!

Filed under: weather — Donna at 8:28 pm on Sunday, January 25, 2009

OK the rain has saturated the ground, the drain at the bottom of our stairs going into our basement flooded under the door, then under the wall into our food storage room. My husband has had to empty the water out 4 times today. More repairs.

Princess Two Left Feet

Filed under: Health — Donna at 8:25 pm on Sunday, January 25, 2009

I have a health club membership but Julia and I decided to up the intensity of our workouts by doing half the workout in the gym and half of it in walking at the park. My husband voiced his concern that I could get injured going up the 3/4 mile steep incline to the park. I checked the path and it was clear. Well, except for the corner in our neighborhood, on flat ground just two doors away.

I had a klutz spell on Friday morning. Julia and I headed out for a walk early. It had been raining and turned left over snow mounds into smooth slippery mounds of ice. I slipped on an ice flow and saw the curb coming up quickly, I managed to twist and missed planting my face on the curb and landed gracefully in the gutter. My stomach and chest slammed an ice mound leaving me quite ill for a few hours. My two hands broke my fall. Julia insisted we go home but not realizing the extent of my injuries I pressed on. We walked for two miles and by then I was really feeling it. So, homeward we went.

As the day moved forward I begin to feel pain in my wrists, my foot, my knees, my hips, and my back.
My chiropractor adjusted everything but my arms and sent me off to Insta-Care for X-rays. No breaks, but the specialist will check them on Monday. They wanted to put both hands in braces, but they ended up putting my left hand in a brace and my right hand in a compression wrap. Darn it is inconvenient! I am hoping no casts. I would cut it off before the wedding before I would show up in two casts! I have to take it easy, at least this week. Then pain will be my determining factor.

Happy 57th Birthday Roger

Filed under: Birthdays and Anniversaries — Donna at 12:23 am on Sunday, January 25, 2009

Its my honey’s Birthday. Happy birthday dear!

Intimacy-Her Answer

Filed under: Musings — Donna at 12:52 am on Thursday, January 22, 2009

I mentioned I asked Julia what intimacy means to her. I failed to add her reply to my previous post. I asked the question and then waited in silence. She looked at me and said that intimacy was an important part of courtship and marriage. She said that what it means tp her is to first to seek oneness in heart, then oneness in might (or will), then oneness in mind, and that upon this foundation the sealing will unlock the door to oneness in strength or body. It means at-one-ment, to be at one with God and your spouse. She said it only happens when you do it in the right order.

Then the points of my previous post were what we discussed following her answer. She shared that James E.Talmage felt the atonement was both infinite and intimate. She said in this previous conference we were encouraged to be united, of one heart and one mind.

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